Twitter Tuesday, Jul 14 2009

Twitter is one of those websites that I thought I would never joined because it looked lame. Well, ladies and gentlemen, I signed up for twitter.

The interesting thing about twitter is that you can tell everyone every little thing you are doing, every minute of the day. In turn, you can “follow” people and hear everything from every minute of their day. The thing is, I don’t feel a need to follow everyone of my friends everyday lives, and endow my time to give my friends a heads up with what I’m doing. It’s, in theory, boring.

But I joined twitter today, just to see if I can prove myself wrong.

And here is my twitter profile. Follow me xD

http://twitter.com/DownFall_RiD

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I hate racism Thursday, Jul 2 2009

One way you can really tick me off is to be blatantly racist in my face.

Let me get things strait, before I head into my little rant. I don’t mind if one uses racism in a humorous way, as some stand up comics do. For one: it’s funny. And two:  It shows us how ridiculous racism and stereotyping is.

But that’s not the kind of racism I’m about to rant about.

When someone tells me something along the lines “I fucking everyone of those Mexicans, They are all border hoppers and they are ruing our country”, I become immediately on edge. A statement like that is not only false, but it’s completely unreasonable to think that in that manner.

I usually reply to statements like that with “Because all Mexicans are the same, right?”. That usually takes them off guard.

I hate it when people assume some one is a bad person because of their race. It’s not that at all. They are a bad person because they are a bad person. Being White, Black, Hispanic, Asian, etc doesn’t make you different from other people besides the fact that you have different physical features. Inside all humans consist the same brain, the same deep rooted human nature. And when it comes right down to it, what makes someone a good citizen, a criminal, a decent person, an arrogant pig, is how the individual chooses to rule their lives, not their race.

Peace.

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This defines me almost completely Saturday, Jun 20 2009

I was wowed by this reading.

The report was generated with the following birth data: male, born on 23 January 1991 at 10:00 am in Bountiful, Utah.

Your sun sign is Aquarius. This is the sign in which the Sun is in your birth chart. Your Ascendant is in Pisces, and your Moon is in Taurus.

Partner references which may occur in the text are set for a relationship with a woman.

Sun in Aquarius, Moon in Taurus

This astrological combination gives you a steady, quiet nature that is, above all, resistant to change. Transformation and change are wholly foreign to your nature. You are a domestic person and find fulfillment in home matters. In love you rarely vacillate, remaining a sincere and faithful partner. Your thinking processes are solidly founded, and your point of view is conservative. Your level of endurance is high; only when something outrageously unreasonable is presented to you, do you display your temper. You are likely to have an active social life and good friends. Since you are content with yourself and your environment, it is no wonder that your attitude is a genuinely humanitarian one. You may be highly praised in your business or profession, because you receive such total pleasure in meeting responsibilities and commitments.

Ascendant in Pisces, Neptune in the Tenth House

At the time of your birth the zodiacal sign of Pisces was ascending in the horizon. Its ruler Neptune is located in the tenth house.

Usually, because of the dual nature of this sign, your experiences seem always to oscillate between two extremes. Emotionally, you may become confounded and perplexed when your soul is torn between opposite attractions. Your temperament is, nevertheless, kindly and able to appreciate the most subtle emotional experiences.

You are inclined to introverted living – reserved and retiring. You would do well to gear your life to occupations where your creativeness can be expressed freely.

Your life will be replete with flux and change, and yet this will not be a source of annoyance as you are most adaptable to situations.

Essentially, you are expansive, guided by intuition and emotion, and falling very easily into elated or depressive moods.

You have a natural ability to perceive from unknown sources where the mind does not intervene. Such an ability, unfortunately, is usually misunderstood or has little application in life. If you do become involved in art, however, there are very good prospects for success as a painter, musician, writer, or poet.

Your sexual life will be highly varied and intense. When you fall in love, you feel as if the limitations of your personality are dissolving and you are receptive to everything that exists.

You need a strong hand to protect you and lead you into the practical world. Generally, you have inclinations and tendencies for the following: professions dealing with occult matter or mediumships, religion, seafaring, acting, psychometry, clairvoyance, painting, poetry, mysticism, and espionage.

The ruler of your life events, Neptune, here, is an indication that you may find it hard to determine definite goals in your life. Most of your effort will be expanding climbing the social ladder by obscure and mystical methods, and it might be difficult to obtain material success.

Moon in the Second House

The Moon was found in the second house at the time of your birth. Your business dealings and means of income will consist of a multiplicity of activities where you must relate to many people. The position is generally good.

Occupationally, you are going to be inclined to pursue money through popular activities.

In any case, expect a fortune which holds variation and fluctuation. Try to orient your monetary dealings to the general public for you possess the ability to succeed when in touch with the popular masses.

Note: The Moon is technically near the end of house 1 and is therefore interpreted in house 2.

Sun in the Eleventh House

The Sun was found in the eleventh house at the time of birth.

In general, this is a favorable position. Throughout your life you will receive assistance from persons occupying superior positions in life. After middle age there are strong possibilities that you will gain in reputation and esteem through relationships with people of prominence. Destiny may grant you sufficient strength of character and even opportunities to carry out your wishes to their utmost.

Spiritually, you seem to have a loyal disposition and you are straightforward and honestly oriented. You’re very well aware, however, of a sense of superiority and dignity.

Saturn in the Eleventh House

Saturn was found in the eleventh house at the time of birth. Psychologically, this denotes a rather hidden and limited view of your personal ambitions, your friendships, and of your future. You’re very ambitious, cautious, just, patient, responsible, but perhaps, too serious.

You’re an individual with few friends and even there you may find that some of them will assist you with advice rather than with actual help in times of peril.

Venus in the Twelfth House

Venus was in the twelfth house at the time of birth.

Only those very close to you have a hint of the little known facets of your personality. Regardless of the way you speak and express yourself, when you are alone, relaxed, and free of worry, you can have a sociable and congenial temperament that runs alongside a generous, kind, and attractive character.

This astrological combination may lead you into clandestine love affairs. Unless you use a great amount of tact and diplomacy, these secret affairs may create social complications that force premature termination.

Astrological Data used for Short Report – Personal Portrait
for Andrew Manning (male)
born on 23 Jan 1991 local time 10:00 am
in Bountiful, UT (US) U.T. 17:00
111w53, 40n53 sid. time 17:42:36

Planetary positions
planet sign degree motion
Sun Aquarius 3°11′21 in house 11 direct
Moon Taurus 4°36′08 end of house 1 direct
Mercury Capricorn 11°06′23 in house 10 direct
Venus Aquarius 23°09′02 in house 12 direct
Mars Gemini 0°36′41 in house 2 direct
Jupiter Leo 9°17′36 in house 5 retrograde
Saturn Capricorn 28°20′52 in house 11 direct
Uranus Capricorn 11°03′57 in house 10 direct
Neptune Capricorn 14°58′07 in house 10 direct
Pluto Scorpio 20°07′13 in house 8 direct
True Node Capricorn 28°00′36 in house 11 direct
Planets at the end of a house are interpreted in the next house.

House positions (Placidus)
Ascendant Pisces 22°25′21
2nd House Taurus 5°57′52
3rd House Gemini 4°05′50
Imum Coeli Gemini 26°00′22
5th House Cancer 17°15′26
6th House Leo 13°00′27
Descendant Virgo 22°25′21
8th House Scorpio 5°57′52
9th House Sagittarius 4°05′50
Medium Coeli Sagittarius 26°00′22
11th House Capricorn 17°15′26
12th House Aquarius 13°00′27

Major aspects
Sun Square Moon 1°25
Sun Trine Mars 2°35
Sun Opposition Jupiter 6°06
Sun Conjunction Saturn 4°50
Moon Trine Mercury 6°30
Moon Square Jupiter 4°41
Moon Square Saturn 6°15
Moon Trine Uranus 6°28
Mercury Quincunx Jupiter 1°49
Mercury Conjunction Uranus 0°02
Mercury Conjunction Neptune 3°52
Venus Square Pluto 3°02
Mars Trine Saturn 2°16
Jupiter Quincunx Uranus 1°46
Saturn Sextile Ascendant 5°56
Uranus Conjunction Neptune 3°54
Neptune Sextile Pluto 5°09
Pluto Trine Ascendant 2°18
Numbers indicate orb (deviation from the exact aspect angle).

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Everyone. Especially dramaqueens, and the spineless. Monday, Jun 15 2009

So all of this might look similar to shit you’d find in a self help book. Except I won’t tell you to write down ten positive things that happened to you today, or refer to quantum physics or epigenics when i’m trying to tell you to keep your self happy, and I won’t force you to drink green tea to make your woes go away.

But I will tell you to eats lots of fiber, because fiber is awesome.

But seriously

I haven’t been the happiest, most self confident person on the block. But in the recent year, i’ve come far. I grew back a fucking spine, and I can go through my days with a smile on my face. I’m smiling as I write this now. This is a collection of random advice that I’ve found from friends, family, myself, and even on the internet. I’ve followed through with this advice many times over with great results

Don’t get so angry at your friends. Chances are, if they are your real friends, you don’t have to, and you’re probably being a drama queen. Most relationship troubles have been solved by, believe it or not: BEING ADULT, AND TALKING IT OUT.

Don’t let your pride get in the way of keeping your real friends.

Forgive and forget. I’ve been raised to be the better person, regardless if I think I am right or wrong. I always, ALWAYS, apologize if I find that I am acting unadult, whether or not I think I was right in doing so. I’ve done so since I was a little boy.

Not just laughter, but having a good time in general is really the best medicine. Sometimes, if you think things are going down in your life, you can just find something you like doing, with a few friends, and things will start looking up.

Never ever let yourself get down over something you can’t control. If you think you can’t help it, try doing something similar to the above paragraph. DO IT!

If you’re afraid of trying something new, just remember that if you’ve got nothing to lose, you can give it a shot. You just might like what you are doing.

Keep yourself maintained. And when i say maintained, I mean everything from keeping yourself physically fit and clean to a confident mentality and peace of mind. It’s not easy, but nothing worth having comes easy. And trust me, a maintained self is worth having.

Chances are, even if you are looking down at life, you’re doing better than you think. Keep up the good work, and tell yourself you’re doing okay.

Focusing on the negative is a truly spine breaking disease. So compliment yourself daily. And if you can, compliment someone else. It helps.

Keep in touch with friends. Send them a text, even if it’s a simple “hello, how are you?” or one of those silly forwards that say “send this to your real friends or you WILL DIE AND HAVE BAD LUCK FOREVR!”.

I admit to not following my own advice sometimes, but i’m human, just like you. We make mistakes, but that doesn’t mean that we can’t keep at it and try better next time, right?

Add some positive feedback, and more friendly advice in the comment section. Lets keep the positive train going

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I dyed my hair! Monday, Jun 8 2009

I did the thing I said I would never do folks. I dyed my hair. It’s nothing too extreme, it’s just a darker, and more of a red brown when compared to my light golden brown hair. But I’m surprised that I did it. The decision was actually a little hard to make. I’ll fill you in, ‘cuz I’m bored, and I have nothing else to do.

When Chance, his hair stylist, and I went to go get his black hair dye from a Hair Beauty store, I came across an isle with all sorts of hair colors. I was uninterested at first, until I saw a few snippets of hair samples with dark brown hair dye in them. That’s when I started contemplating my hair being a darker color. I asked my friend his opinion, and of course, that fruit was all for it. I asked his hair stylist, and she said I would look good in it.  I was gonna take the hair dye right of the shelf and buy it just then, until my horrible gut feeling told me “NUUUUUUU, DON’T DO IT. HAIR DYE IS THE DEVIL!”. I became torn. I wanted to try something new, but another part of me wanted to stick with the old ways. I was then torn so much that my stomach started to churn. I felt like I was going to explode over such a little thing as deciding whether or not I wanted my hair dyed. It took a minute, but I won over my gut feeling, and I decided to JUST DO IT.

We went back to Chance’s house, and I got my hair dyed. AND I LIKE IT

I took a good life lesson from that day, one that I should have learned a long time ago. If there is an opportunity, with only little to lose, take the chance, you may enjoy it. Don’t let over exaggerated fears and stupid anxiety get in the way of making your decisions in life.

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Pirate Metal Wednesday, Jun 3 2009

This band Alestorm, and they are a Pirate Metal Band. If this band isn’t awesome, then I don’t know what is.

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I always seem to forget that I have a Blog. Wednesday, Jun 3 2009

Sorry about anyone who was hoping to see another blog post (my view count says there isn’t). I always seem to forget that I have a Blog. But I guess that what happens when you aren’t a serious blogger, who really doesn’t care if anyone sees his blog or not.

I just use this thing as a way to jot down random thoughts and musings of my day. I don’t go all out, like some bloggers, with some sort of agenda. I just write. Anything. And sometimes, that can get boring to me. That’s why I sometimes take month long breaks from blogging.

At least I don’t have a huge viewer base to yell at me in desperation when I don’t blog for a WHOLE DAY, like i’ve seen in some popular blogs (and them guys/girls need to get some serious lifeage).

Anyway, i’m back to write about random thoughts and musings now. That was the whole point of this blog post. And look how I turned out to be a nice digression of thoughts, when I could of easily said with much less effort “HAI GUYS I’M BACK!!!!!”.

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Regarding the “regain of confidence” post Wednesday, May 20 2009

I’m doing much better now, compared to my mental state when I was writing that blog post titled “A Battle for a Regain of Confidence”. In fact I’m great. I’m content, and I even threw a few smiles today.

Sometimes, I do get a little down about something, and I get hit with another inner struggle. I usually, in most cases, come out of an inner struggle as a stronger person, and I move on with my life.

I realize that life will always come with ups and downs, and that’s the beauty of it. Being a breathing, feeling, living human being is great. Life is fantastic folks. If you think you are stuck neck deep in drama, get over it. Get the fuck out of that shadow you’re living and come see the sunshine.

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o woops i firgawt Saturday, May 16 2009

I’ve been meaning to post about this for a while.

I have been composing music for quite some time now, and I think it’s time to show off my work… even though I have been having minimum views for quite some time.

Check my music out in the link below.

http://www.myspace.com/andrewcomposer

I desperately need to upload my new music on there, but in the mean time check out “Waiting Forever” while you are there. The whole song is entirely improv (except for a few tweeks here and there) with software instruments (AKA: VST Instruments) that come with Acid Pro 7, and I think it turned out nice.

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A Battle for a Regain of Confidence Friday, May 8 2009

I know that only I control the will of my extreme feelings, but I sometimes forget that.

I haven’t always been one for self confidence. Back in the day, I could have been considered spineless. But at one point, about 9 months ago, I grew a fucking spine, and went straight on through with the “right” path. It was around the time where I turned my life around, and started to lose weight and start exercising. That was also around the time where I found my love for spirituality, a little bit of  philosophy, and quantum mechanics/physics/mysticism. I was feeling great, and I felt like a great person, and I felt like I was beginning to find myself. I had the confidence to do what needed to be done, and say what I felt needed to be said. My general anxiety disorder was seeming to be non-existent (despite a few occurrences that I dealt with). But now I fear I’ve strayed from where I once was, and that I might be heading back in the wrong direction.

I’ve been fighting to get that great feeling I had back, but I seem to have forgotten what initialy inspired that change, that umph. What is it that I am missing? What exactly am I trying to find? What is it that is keeping me from my peace? These are questions that I have been trying to find answers for. And in trying to find those answers, I’ve seemed to put my mind in the past, or towards the future, which are two dangerous places for my mind to wander. I want to put my mind back into present tence.

Perhaps I’m just going through a phase. Perhaps this is just something I will eventually get past with time and effort. But it’s discomforting.

I will refuse to let this bring me down any further.

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